Wednesday, 14 January 2026

Witness 254, Moments in History; D2

Moments in History; D2


Nairobi, January 15th, 2019
World in Turmoil
It’s January 15th, 2019. It is the 25th day of the US Government shutdown. In the UK, the House of Commons is preparing to take a vote on the Brexit deal. Uncertainty looms.​ In Venezuela, President Nicolas Maduro has just been sworn in for a second term. The election is contested. A crisis is brewing. In Zimbabwe, there are massive protests following the announcement of an increase in fuel prices. The world seems to be in turmoil. 

It’s a warm, fuzzy Tuesday in Nairobi. The city is stirring back to life. On the ground floor, in a secluded corner of dusitD2 Nairobi, the daily meeting by departmental heads is underway. d2NA or D2, as it’s popularly known, is a high-end hotel in the suburbs of Nairobi. It is located in the 14 Riverside Drive complex, less than 3 kilometres away from the central business district. The General Manager is away and today, this will be an unusually short meeting.

Hustle in the City
As recounted by himself, earlier that morning at 05.30 am, Alex Kariuki made his way to the All Saints Cathedral, a church at Nairobi’s CBD. Young and an epitome of fitness, he worked at their Health Club, as a gym instructor.​ Alex had also taken up a second job recently, at D2NA. The resident instructor was away on leave and Alex was holding fort, as a temporary reliever. Having finished his regular job at 1.00 pm, he made his way to the hotel and reported to work just after 2.00 pm.

This was his third day at his second job. He barely knew anyone. The gym wasn’t too busy either and it was  a rather slow day, with just three other people sweating it out on the treadmill. Unbeknown to him, he would soon be caught up in an incident that would make international news while claiming the lives of 22 innocent people.​ 

On that fateful Tuesday, I was also at the hotel. After that daily brief, I had three scheduled meetings out of the hotel, on 14 Riverside - that stretch of road that runs all the way from Waiyaki Way, the main road artery in Westlands. One of the meetings was with one of our key clients at the time. The client - one of the largest international news organizations - had recently opened up a bureau very close to our hotel.

With expected increase in travel into Nairobi, this presented a business opportunity. It was therefore important for us to reach out, connect and engage them early in the year. I was accompanied to this meeting by Claudia (not her real name), who was the Director of Business Development. I reported directly to her.​ 

During our meeting at the client’s offices we were offered coffee. We had what I would refer to as a very warm meeting. On our way back, we made a stop for a second meeting. When we finished, we went back to 14 Riverside Drive.

The complex comprised of 5 multi-storied buildings or blocks that somewhat ‘circled’ the hotel. With 3 wings, the Thai affiliated hotel was situated almost at the centre of the complex. Though somewhat quiet, this 5-acre land was home to over 40 local and multinational organizations with hundreds of employees.

Hot and Eerie
Upon return, Claudia and I parted ways. She had another meeting at the hotel. On the other hand, I still had one more meeting with one of my clients who had an office within the complex. Our meeting took place as planned and by the time we were through, it was a few minutes to 2.00 pm.​ 

With the staff cafeteria soon closing, I dashed there, grabbed a quick meal and soon, I would be out of the complex again. This time round, I had a personal errand to run. My motor vehicle insurance sticker had expired and I was due to collect a new one at Resolution Health offices. This is a Kenyan insurance service provider and they also had an office nearby, in Westlands.

I arrive there and I go into the office on 3rd floor, leaving the driver at the parking area. I collect my insurance sticker and we are soon on our way back. While enroute, I call my friend Jam who had facilitated issuance of the sticker. On the call, I told him that I had collected it and I thank him.​ 

Driving down Waiyaki Way, we turned to Chiromo Road and then we slowly weaved our way down the road. Just after what was then the Australian High Commission, we turned right, driving through the long driveway that led to 14 Riverside Drive. We went through the security check and past the main entrance.

I remember quite vividly how that day felt. At about 26°C, it was rather hot but eerily quiet. Going through that routine check, everything seemed in place and yet something wasn’t. I just couldn’t put a finger on it. We had then driven down to a parking area that was located behind Arlington, one of the office blocks. At exactly 3.28 pm, as I was preparing to leave the car, I heard a loud bang.

Under Siege
Across the building, way up on the 8th floor in the D2 gym, Alex also heard the bang. It was followed by eerie silence and a distinct, ‘pop pop pop, pop’. As told verbatim in a subsequent interview, he walks to the balcony and looks down below, through the window. He sees people running.​ He opens the door, and followed by the three other people in the gym, they run down the stairs. 

When he gets to the landing on the 4th floor, he turns around to look. He can’t see anyone else and he realizes that he is alone. Being new, he doesn’t know his way around. He doesn’t even know where the emergency exit is. He decides to go back to the gym on the 8th floor.

Meanwhile, across the complex, things are beginning to unravel. At the courtyard, a suicide bomber has blown himself to smithereens. His body-parts are strewn all over the place and a whole leg lies on the grass.​ Two people who were patronizing the nearby restaurant and were having a lunch meeting would become the first casualties of the attack. In an adjacent saloon, having witnessed the incident, the employees start to flee, mguu niponye.

Soon, blasts rend the air. Then comes the distinct sound of gunshots. CCTV footage would later reveal 4 heavily armed terrorists making their way into the complex. Dressed in black, faces in full view, they are on a suicide mission. They are armed with grenades, AK47’s and extra magazines for good measure.

Written in Infamy
Once inside the complex and facing little resistance, they split up into two groups. Two terrorists enter Hanover from the front. This is the office block that is closest to the main entrance. Two others go around the building, past the remains of their dead colleague, and enter the building from the back.​ They sweep the building, moving tactically from floor to floor, shooting at anything that moves. 

Scared and fearing for their lives, people are holed up in toilets and in any hidden space that they can find. Some crawl between spaces, trying to elude the attackers and save their lives. Some are lucky. Some aren't.
From there, they move from one block to the other. The MO is the same. Thankfully, as they move from block to block, having been forewarned, a number of people have managed to escape while others are hiding. Messages are being sent out covertly; some to loved ones and some to security agencies. It’s a cry for help.​ 

By the time the 4 terrorists make it to Cavendish, the block at the far end, it is estimated that about 17 people are holed up in there. By the time they leave and enter dusitD2, they have shot dead six people in that block. It is here in D2 - a hotel whose name will hitherto be written in infamy - where the final clash will play out. Alex will be right in the middle of it and he will live to tell the tale!

Rescue
In what can best be described as speedy response, about 10 minutes into the attack, help arrives. This comprises paramedics and security forces; the Kenya Recce Squad, the Anti-Terrorism Police Unit, (ATPU), and the military special forces. Also at hand are a number of privately armed civilians and Christian Craighead, a special SAS Officer who happened to be in Kenya as trainer. He would save save numerous lives that day. There are ambulances and a fire truck on stand-by.​ 

As the security forces analyse the situation and as they make a tactical approach, shots are ringing all round. They begin rescuing civilians from buildings and as they exit, one after the other, they are frisked for weapons. They are the escorted away as they cower, amidst strong suppressing gunfire.

At 4.46 pm, heavy gunfire can still be heard in 14 Riverside Drive. Somewhat cornered and taken aback by the rather speedy response, the terrorist now enter D2. Most of the other buildings have been secured and the security forces are slowly moving from block to block and from floor to floor, rescuing civilians.​ It is around th​e same time that Al-Shabaab, the Islamist group in Somalia, releases a message claiming responsibility for the attack. If it wasn’t clear before, the scope of the attack now becomes clearer. Save for the suicide bomber, the 4 attackers are alive and kicking.

As they move up through the hotel, they shoot at CCTV cameras while combing each floor. They are looking to amass as many casualties as they can, They are still heavily armed and they have a direct view of the ground below. They also have direct view of Grosvenor, the office block that is directly opposite the hotel entrance. They train the gunfire there.

Hair’s Breadth
Back at the D2 gym, Alex knows that he is running out of time. He is looking for places to hide. He first goes to the gent’s changing room but he doesn’t find somewhere suitable to hide. He then goes to the ladies and it is equally not suitable.​ As he recounts himself, he then goes to the staff entrance where there is an adjacent steam engine room (sic). He looks up and sees an opening on the ceiling. He jumps up with both hands and because of his weight, part of the ceiling gives in and collapses, leaving him hanging by his left hand.

Mastering all his strength, he pulls himself up. He swings, his foot managing to lodge itself somewhere. He is now hanging upside down, he says. His phone drops from his pocket as he tries to haul himself up into the ceiling. When he finally makes it, he discovers that his left shoe is missing. It came off in the struggle.​ 

At this point, he recounts, he can hear loud banging and gunshots approaching below him. A few moments later, he hears the door opening and someone approaches his position. No doubt having noticed the shoe and the phone, the terrorist realizes that someone is up there. He fires continuously into the ceiling, emptying the magazine. Then silence.

Alex is lying on his stomach, on the piping and cables that are above the ceiling. He is terrified but unscathed. He keeps still for a while but then he starts getting sore. The posture is getting painful. He decides to sit up and change his posture. In the process, the insulation paper covering the pipes makes a noise.​ He goes on to explain that the next thing that he heard was the magazine being replaced, the gun being cocked and then there followed a second barrage of bullets before silence reigned again. Miraculously, all these bullets have missed him. However, one must have ricocheted and hit him in the arm.

“In the silence, all I could think of was my family, friends and relatives. I wanted to pray, he says. “All that I could muster was, ‘God save my life.’”. By now, shooting has stopped but he can hear gunfire downstairs, followed by shouts of ‘Allahu Akbar.’​ ‘Whenever he shouted, there would be a similar chant and response further down the stairs, followed by gunfire, certainly from another terrorist,’ he says. ‘Interestingly, he says, ‘they would sometimes take a break to go and say a prayer and then the gunfire would continue.’

Break at Dawn
At 8.08 pm, the Head of Kenyan Police says that six of the seven floors at dusitD2 have been secured. At 10.48, the Senior Commander says that all other affected buildings have been secured. However, sporadic gunfire can still be heard.​ It is unclear to me when the last terrorist was neutralized. However, as per unverified sources, for a good part of the night, gunfire was exchanged between the terrorist in the 8th floor gym and security forces patched across the block at Grosvenor, well past 3.00 am on Tuesday 16th. By that time, most civilians had escaped while some still remained hidden in nooks and crannies across different buildings in the complex.

When all is said and done, Alex was amongst the last to be saved, 17 hours after the attack had begun. ‘Come Down, Kuja Chini! Kazi imeisha, the job is done!’ This was the call that finally got Alex to leave the gym the following morning, on 16th January. On his way down, he saw his erstwhile tormenter lying dead at the corridor on the eight floor. The other terrorist had been killed somewhere between the fifth and the sixth floor.

Epilogue
I was seated in the car with the driver behind Arlington, the office block that is opposite the hotel, when I heard those initial gunshots. Soon enough, I would see a number of people running past our parked vehicle. It was a scary thing to see. They then scaled and then jumped over the electric fence and into the Nairobi River. (Later I would learn that for some reason, that fence wasn’t live that afternoon).​ At that point, My phone had 3% charge and I was in utter fear. I left everything, including my keys and in the car and without a word to the driver who was still seated at front of the car, I ran! To where, I don’t know. I just ran and ran and ran!

Somehow, I found myself at this clandestine bridge that served as a link between 14 Riverside Complex and the adjacent office complex. A couple of people had gathered there and as soon as it opened, I was amongst the first group of people to walk out of 14 Riverside and out of harm’s way.​ On the way out, I had managed to squeeze out 3 phone calls. The first was to Jam, letting him know that something was happening but that I was getting out of the complex. The second was to a mutual friend who I asked to let the G.M know that something was awry. The third was to Claudia. In my panic, I just said, ‘Code Red,’. She responded by saying, “I have heard it and we are leaving.” She never made it.

Minutes later, she would be gunned down on that very bridge alongside three other valiant colleagues, as they exited the complex. The group of four that were killed there comprised Lynn (not her real name), a warm bubbly personality who was the G.M’s assistant. She had been unwell that day and following the attack, had a fainting spell. She was killed on a stretcher.​ It also included Trey and Martin, (not their real names); 2 selfless men who worked in the security department and who died in the line of duty, while assisting Lynn. It also included Nurse Joan (Not her real name) who would survive the immediate attack but who would succumb to related injuries a year later.

Also killed in the attack was Chef Gadison, (not his real name). He had had finished his shift and was celebrating his birthday that day, in January. In the spirit of celebration, his colleagues had ‘washed’ him. He was in the shower cleaning up when unbeknown to him, the siege begun. As captured by CCTV, he was walking out nonchalantly when one of the terrorists spotted him and shot him.​ Then there was the ever polite and radiant Mina, (not her real name) who was the Executive Housekeeper. She had left the building during the attack. She made her way all the way towards the bridge. For some reason, she turned back. She dashed back into the office and picked her laptop. She was running back out when she was attacked. She would succumb to her injuries while in hospital.

In total, 21 innocent people died that day. Over 30 people were injured while over 700 people were rescued by gallant men and women who put their lives on the line. The full scope of the attack would sink in later, when the final count was done and when we were unable to account for people.​ That evening, when I had exited the complex and standing by the road on Waiyaki Way, opposite ICEA Building, I was numb and confused. I borrowed someone’s phone and called Jam, letting him know that I had made it out. He asked me to wait for him at a certain Club in 'Westie.'

It is while there that I watched​, for the first time, what was unfolding in 14 Riverside Drive. I drunk beer and cried. When he eventually got to me after 8.00 pm, I was hammered and an absolute wreck. I would proceed to spend the next couple of days depressed and hunkered down forlornly on his couch.

All the 5 terrorist died in that attack. D2NA would close for eight months. It reopened to pomp and splendour, in August 2019. With the advent of Covid,  early in 2020, it would close its doors one final time. Lives would be upended. We were all declared redundant and we all went home. Ownership of the complex would subsequently be lost in an unrelated court case. 

I never paid back Jam for the beers that he bought me that day!



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Tuesday, 11 February 2020

The First Post



Chouchou,

Welcome to the world, cupcake
Only your teeny-weeny lil' hands
Could have re-written  this story

No tape can ever truly measure
The extent that you’re treasured
Sweet, beautiful, apple of my eye.

                         
 










A child is God's gift - His reward. For me, 'Mwiseke’, you’ve  been a most worthy gift!

May you always have good health

May you find your joie de vivre, ‘A’
May you always be safe and snug!




Your star shines ahead and I pray 🙏
Hoping, believing and knowing   😇
That yours will be a beautiful life🤗                           
Daddy loves you dearly. Always will
Seize the moment, Carpe diem, Robi 
My lil’ Kuria girl, ‘Live, Laugh, Love!’

With love,


Maroa



Friday, 22 March 2019

To my brother, Jay




Preamble



A few days before the death of our brother, Mwita Maroa Sawi Maroa, despite being hopeful that he would come home to us, I had a nagging feeling that this time round, he would not make it out of hospital. 

With a heavy heart and with the hope that I would never have to share this post, I set out to express what I felt at the time. On a simple notebook in a private space, tears running down my eyes, I wrote, maybe to prepare myself  for the worst case scenario.

Jay did not pull through and I never read my notes again, until  this week.  He suffered a stroke, and was brain dead for a few days. He was kept on life support, just so that my siblings could see him one more time.

On 23rd March, after we had all gathered and said a prayer for him, the plug was pulled off . He went to be  with the Lord. It will be exactly a year tomorrow. In his memory, with a heavy heart and sobbing as I typed away, I set out to share the note...

Dear Mwita,

If I put up this post, you are probably gone. To where? I don’t know. This though is painful. It will be, for a long time. Somehow, we must get you out of hospital. We will take you to Ntimaru, then we will lay you to rest, next to Goko.

Inevitably, one day I will lie next to you at home, peacefully and undisturbed - in the quaint and dusty land of our people - where our hearts will always be. Home of Sawi and Nyangige. Home of Rioba and Sabheti. Home of Mukuria and Marwa.

A lifetime is all we have and yours, Jay, was a blessing.  You were a  gentle soul and a darn jolly good fellow. One day when your kids are grown, I will tell them that they had a good father; that he loved them deeply and that he cared a lot about them.

I will tell Rioba and Bhoke that their father was  a dreamer and that he lived a full and normal life. I will tell those munchkins that  few of us have had to deal with the condition that you had. That you did so with acceptance and relative good grace, to the very end.

I will tell them that you loved them, even when they screamed at the top of their voices. I will tell them that their Daddy thought about their future and that he would have liked to see them grow to adulthood and to succeed in everything that they did.

I will tell them that he cared, even worried sometimes about their Sokoro and their Goko, even more than he worried about himself. We worried about him too, never thinking that this day would come. It has been tough going, these past few days.

It has been especially tough for Tina, for Dad and for Mum. The going to hospital, the bleeding ulcers, the stroke, the oedema, the waiting,  having hope and losing it…The kids are clueless.  Some day, they will ask where their Dad is. A lifetime is all you had. It is all we have, really.

Begrudgingly and painfully, we will somehow carry on. We will take care of Tina for you. We will take care of Bhoke and Rioba like they are our children. We will take care of Dad and Mum, as you would have wanted us to do, and as we always have.

We have stuck together as a family and now we must do it for you, for your dear wife and for your beautiful children who have a lifetime ahead of them. We must also do it for Mum and for Dad who hurt deeply, for you. It will continue to hurt for the rest of our days, and not any less.

Jay, it’s surreal, even unreal. It is unbelievable, that after 42 years, against a lot of odds, it has all come to a sudden end. We will cry for you, thinking about what was, what is and what could have been. But we will also thank God for your beautiful life.

Your dearest brother,

Maroa.



Tuesday, 6 February 2018

Taking Stock; Thirty Three

It has been said that, 'years, lovers and glasses of wine: these things should not be counted.' Luhyas will add children to the list, for good measure. However, as  anyone who has been around for a while will also tell you, it is hard not to keep tabs of that first one.

Maybe the reason  that we do so is that as we juggle careers, family commitments and new pursuits, we are nugded along a path of introspection that forces us to think more critically about things.

I may be going out on a limb here, but there may well be a link between the number of birthdays celebrated and the level of introspection arising thereof.

Think about it for instance, suppose you were an athlete - not necessarily at the top of your sport - it is likely that you  would be at the tail end of your once illustrious career.

With respect to your performance, even with the lack of injury, you would, most likely, be beyond the glory. You would soon be facing the prospects of retirement and a new life away from the limelight. 

Yes, I know that the closest analogy to a star athlete is a lottery winner, what with the short shelf life in the public eye and huge earnings. But even with the best of preparations and forewarning, wouldn’t the possibility of change give you pause.

In all spheres of our lives, we are all confronted with the prospect of change at one time or another. After all, the only constant in this life is change. With this in mind, I set out to write down a list of 'thirty threes.'

Initially, I wanted to write something a little more positive, keeping track of some of the milestones celebrated. And why not, I am an optimist. A more upbeat story with a more positive outlook would have been in tune with who I am.

A calm sea, they say, never made a good sailor. Like everyone else, I have had my share of no-so-positive experiences. So I ended up writing instead about a few regrets  that I have had.

This particular post is from a good place and  it is especially personal for me  because if nothing else, it gives me perspective and presents an opportunity to  recalibrate and reset the sail – a future beacon for my older self.

Regret No. 33
Not doing that 19th December wedding in the beautiful seaside town of Lamu. Well, this I put on top of the list for one reason. In the unlikely event that my mother is going to see this, I’ll still be in good favour, as I have tried to be. Once everything is sorted, it is a wedding my people!

Regret No. 32
Sacrificing my culinary skills. Yes, how delightful it would have been to cook. Like really cook! I can’t remember the last time that I did that. Ok, who I’m I kidding. I can’t remember the last time that I cooked, period! So here is a note to self to cook a lot more often. Who knows, I may just have a yet undiscovered skill.

Regret No. 31
Lagging on the writing. Sometimes, the reason I did not write was because I didn't think there was a story to tell. Sometimes even when there was a hint of a story, I figured that maybe, that was not how the script was meant to read. Mostly though, it was because I wanted to tell the perfect story. Sadly, and as result of all the reasons above, the story was just never written.

Regret No. 30
There is something remotely exciting about receiving a letter from those that you love. How much better when it is handwritten. Many years ago, I would write letters to my siblings and my parents. A little older, I would pen tens of love letters to girls. I haven't written a letter in  years. As a result, I have missed an opportunity to convey my deepest thoughts to those that I love and an opportunity to track the evolution of my sentiments, over time.  Never mind my not-so-good handwriting, I promise to make letter writing great again!

Regret No. 29
Failing to read as much as I would have wanted to.  On this one, there is no good excuse.  I just had my priorities a little warped, this past year. Even the little reading I did was less than impressive.  I struggled through a few titles and barely scrapped through others. Forget the excuses. One thing is for sure, I should have read a lot more.

Regret No. 28
Not breathing enough. Allow me to share a useless scientific fact. I’ll explain the context later. I quote,   ‘on average, a person at rest takes about 16 breaths per minute. This means we breathe about 960 breaths an hour, 23,040 breaths a day, 8,409,600 a year, unless we get a lot of exercise.’ The long and short of it is that I dropped the ball on my fitness regimen, and regrettably so.

Regret No. 27
Thinking I could work my way down this list without giving more specific information and making this count-down a lot more revealing. I honestly thought that I could easily waltz through this list.  For the sake of moving further down the list, I will throw you a bone. Unlikely as it sounds, yes it’s true. 

Regret No. 26
That day I showed up for work in the morning with only one shoe!!! Yes, so I wake up one morning, dash into the car and drive off to work. An hour or so later, having endured the crazy Nairobi traffic, I drive into the parking lot. I switch off the ignition and reach out for my shoes on the mat in the floor of the car. Lo and behold! To my utmost horror, I only had one left shoe!

Regret No. 25
It probably makes sense for me to explain here, how this happened. This brings me to regret number twenty five, which is reflective of how I sometimes cruised through hectic weeks and sometimes crazy timelines.  So on the said morning, I had left the house in a huff. I didn’t have both feet fully inside the shoes. As soon as I was safely inside the car,  the plan was to kick them off onto the mat.   But this is not what happened.

Regret No. 24
Unknown to me, while I got my left leg into the car with the left shoe intact, when I lifted my right foot to get in, I had unknowingly left one shoe on the ground and speeded off. Brings me to regret number twenty four - not taking time  to review progress made because I was so fixated on the next task.  You know the rest of the story. So I kicked myself about it that day.

Regret No. 23
Just like that, I was left to deal with the aftermath of something that could easily have been avoided. Inevitably, I was forced to either buy a new pair of shoes or to go back home and find the second shoe. My  plan for the day had been ruined.  Of course I was livid and so mad at myself for a while. More importantly, I learnt some valuable lessons. I can smile about it now, but I didn’t then.

Regret No. 22
That day that I had a nearly fatal accident. It wasn’t so much how the accident happened or the fact that it may well have been fatal. It wasn’t so much about what I thought I could have done or not done to avoid it.

Regret No. 21
It wasn’t having to deal with the aftermath and having to worry about the other people involved. It wasn’t having to explain to my colleagues and siblings. It wasn’t  not having to tell my parents because I worried more for them than I did for myself. It was everything about that accident!

Regret No. 20
Failing to appreciate that the pace of progress takes time and that real and lasting growth is mostly organic. Yeah, there are a lot of things that would have been best ticked off the to-do-list eons ago.

Regret No. 19
But before I get ahead of myself, for most of these things, it wasn’t so much a lack of effort as it was a matter of time. So I am learning to be patient, in a sense knowing that I'd do better than watching the grass grow. Patience isn't my strongest suit but I'll have to learn to be patient especially with respect to my huge ambitions and personal timelines. To everything, time...

Regret No. 18

I'm quite ambitious. I am also a dreamer; I dream of people, things and places. With respect to ambition, my biggest regret is that I haven't been ambitious enough. I want to dream so big, set that bar so high so when I fall short, I'll still have a lot to smile about. Aim for the sun. You may not reach it. But at least your arrow will fly higher than it would have if you had aimed for an object at the same level as yourself.

Regret No. 17
Not appreciating enough of the little things; a good night’s sleep; a delightful morning;  a sumptuous meal; a hearty laugh; a  relaxing swim; a starry night; a cold drink; a warm bed; a gentle kiss; a good night’s sleep. These moments were too many to count, yet  in the midst of all the noise, these all important moments we greatly underappreciated.

Regret No. 16
Not saying ‘No’ enough. I should have said a lot more ‘No’s than I actually did. Part of the reason I did not was because I genuinely like to be of help to other people, even when I can’t.  As a result, sometimes, despite the best of intentions and my willingness to come through for people, I have inevitably failed to make good on certain promises. Yes, it always killed me that I could not!

Regret No. 15
Not coming through for others in ways that I would have wanted to was tough. There are numerous cases this past year that I felt I could not be as charitable as I would have wanted to be. The reason was because I have done so much for so few, I have as a result spread myself so thin in certain respects.

Regret No. 14
Consequently, I could not quite turn up for others in ways that I would wanted to. I have missed birthdays, weddings and even funerals. I wasn't always able to give the gifts that I wanted and was not always present for those all important moments in the lives of some people that I was closely acquainted with.

Regret No. 13
I beat myself about it sometimes but because of all this, and them some, I have come to learn about priorities and sadly, the fact that resources are finite. So I will be do my best to show up for those that mean the most to me, when called upon. More importantly, I will be honest enough with myself to say it,  for those that I cannot. 

Regret No. 12
My thoughts though will never waver because I have always wished everyone well, as I do now. I therefore understand when you, in return, can give  nothing but a word of support, maybe a hug and best wishes, at best. 

In good times and in bad times, regrettably, because of circumstances or inability - a factor of time and space - sometimes all that I will be able to do is to wish you well. I hope that you will understand when this is the case because having been there, I totally do.

Regret No 11
Sometimes you ought to savour freedom and soak in those delightful moments. Looking back at the year that was, it’s true that I took a lot for granted;  the mere fact that I was alive; that I was healthy and free, that I could go whenever I wanted to go and do whatever I wanted to do. With the benefit of hindsight, I should have savoured these moments a little more and sought to make it possible for others to enjoy these things.

Regret No. 10
Not travelling enough. It wasn’t so much as getting away to a far away land but rather just allowing myself to be completely removed from the confines of my normal environment. I could have hiked up the hill, cycled down the mountain, dipped my feet in cold water and lost myself in time and space. It didn’t happen as it should have.

Regret No. 09
I wasn’t as spiritual as I would have wanted to. Don’t get me wrong, I am not talking about going to church – which I didn’t – but rather being a lot more spiritually in tune with my Maker. There is a part of me, a seed if you may, that should have been nurtured and carefully nourished. It just wasn’t, and of all the things that I can think of, this was regrettably so.

Regret No. 08
I should have put down my phone a little more this year, making time for more one-to-one interactions with real people. You see, I know that in the age of technology and connectivity, we are on the most part, together-alone. As has always been the case since the beginning of time, it is the human interactions that count the most. I know but I didn't live up to this creed.

Regret No. 07
There is a certain beauty in knowing that one can open up to ones vulnerability, in a sense, to wear ones heart on ones sleeve. I didn’t open myself in ways that I should have. To a great degree, I kept what I truly felt to myself and rarely opened up. I should have, if only to let my guard down for once and see how that would pan out.   

Regret No. 06
Assuming it was enough to pull my own weight. To a great degree, I have always sought a sense of independence, believing that I, to a great extent, was solely responsible for the trajectory that my life took. It has been mostly good going but there was always a lingering feeling that I could possibly do more if I harnessed the synergy of those around me. Here is to doing something new.

Regret No. 05
Being overly critical of myself, never quite giving myself credit for some of the success  that I have had. For being a worrier, I am also guilty as charged. I can think of millions of things that worried me about the future, but that never came to pass. Yes I have had my moments but sometimes, thoughts about something so far out and remote in the distant  future ruined some truly special moments in the present.

Regret No. 04
Come to think of it, I can hardly remember the last time I did something new and different. I could have and I should have. I just did not. Settling into a rather predictable routine somewhat tapered the edges off my once adventurous spirit, each time adding onto it another layer of predictability. Maybe it's a case of having to teach an old dog new tricks, or maybe not.

Regret No. 03
Neglecting a certain part of myself. I was always aware that as I grew up, those around me were growing old. In this respect, I always sought to do as much as I could for those few that I loved. Ironically sometimes, that which I have sometimes had to put at the back burner is something that would certainly delight those same people, the most.

Regret No. 02
Sacrificing candor at the altar of propriety. I have always been conscious about other people’s feelings. As a result, while deep down I was never in doubt about certain things, I didn’t always say what I should have, when I should have. Again, not surprisingly, this had some rather devastating results that could most certainly have been avoided in the long run.

Regret No. 01
Not being angry enough when it mattered. It is not lost to me that what is required for evil to triumph, is when good people do nothing. Countless times I sat on the fence when I should have taken up my civic responsibilities, when I should have lent my voice,  albeit a whisper,  to a cause. It's never too late to do so.



P.S: This is by far one of the hardest posts I have had to write. First because I am an optimist,  it was hard to put a positive spin to a post detailing my regrets.

I put off sharing this for a month. First because I couldn’t finish it that first time and second because I couldn’t possibly do so without oversharing.  One thing is for sure, I don’t regret writing this!

What are your regrets? Are there certain things that you would have wanted to do differently? Please feel free to share and thanks for reading. 







Sunday, 31 January 2016

Fancy Some Peace and Quiet in a Billionaire's House?


Fancy some peace and quiet? 


You might just interested in visiting this house

It has its roots in the colonial era
At one time the home of a billionaire spy chief...

...it was once the setting of intrigues that would lead to the assumption of office of  a president. Yes, it was!
With fine wooden fixtures...

...leather furniture... 






...and beautiful chandeliers to boot...




...it is hard to tell that this was once the home of a man both revered and feared,  in equal measure.
 With the shroud of mystery now lifted...

 ...the house is now open to you and I...














It is now known as the The Sovereign Suites, in Limuru
Set next to a lake and surrounded by greenery...




...it is a quiet...

 
...CHARMING...


...and outright interesting place to spend a day...
If you are seeking some peace and quiet, like I was...
  ...you would most certainly enjoy your visit
Lying by the pool, I felt like I was at the backyard of my own private home

Yes there is a bar. This is not a monastery, my friend :-)


Yes, you can thank me later for sharing this piece of heaven with you. And, No I was not paid to put up this piece. They ought to though, with the tonnes of free publicity I have given them.  Better yet,  how about you pay back or pay forwrad.  

 If you want to buy me a cuppa...

If you want to join me in my next swim, I will only be too willing to oblige...














Did you like this piece? Please let me know of any beautiful and unique places in this city. I will visit and hopefully feature them in my next article. All credit will go to you, of course.